Dear Me 2nd

Dear me,
This morning is....different. There is change.
I can sense it, feel it.I'm awake. For the first time in a long time, I feel completely and undeniably wide awake.For once, i don't regret the day before it begins. I welcome the day... because i know... i will see her again.For the first time in a long time, I feel good.

Dear Me

Dear Me,
I couldn't be more wrong, i thought i could smile and nod my way through it, pretend that all might be okay.I had a plan, i wanted to change who i was, create a life of someone new, someone without the past,without the pain,someone alive.But its not that easy, the bad thing stay with u, they follow u. and u can't escape them as much you want to. All u can do is be ready for the good. So when it comes u invited it in, because u need it.
"I need it."

THE CURSE

Curse..meaning what?
A curse is any manner of adversity thought to be inflicted by any supernatural power, such as a spell, a prayer, an imprecation, an execration, magic, witchcraft, a god, a natural force, or a spirit. (Source : Wikipedia\Curse)

THE CURSE
When i start to love someone, then i will start to lose them..."THE CURSE"
When i woke up late there a class, but when i woke up early the class is cancel again.."THE CURSE"
When i starting to do good thing, then some bad thing came up.. "THE CURSE"
When i buy something that i love, then i realize i was a mistake.."THE CURSE"
When i spend my money, then i will lose all my money.."THE CURSE"
When i play something, then i start to lose.."THE CURSE"
When i doing my job, then i unable to finished it.."THE CURSE"
When i talked to people, then i may hurt them unintentionally.."THE CURSE"
but....

i think and think again, it is not because "THE CURSE" but more toward my attitude that i must to change and for greater good of my life and the people around me. Life is not just creating your but to finding urself.

Ku masih disini

Hari ni budak2 start cuti rasmi H1N1..cuti yang di adaptasikan oleh b**i. Akibat cuti ini smua student balik ke rumah masing2. tetapi aku masih disini bersama rakan-rakan seperjuangan masih lagi menetap di Shah Alam dan tidak pulang ke kampung halaman masng2 walau pon UiTM telah mencuti kan kami. Kini sek 7 tempat kami menetap bagaikan padang jarak pandang terkukur, dimana smua manusia2 telah bergerak pulang ke tempat asal mereka.

Tahap keboringan pastynya akan mencapai tahap maksimum takkala malam menjelma dan dkala pertengahan cuti nanti. tapi kami coba untuk kuatkan hati dan tabahkan diri demi agama, bangsa dan negara.

Rakan2 sekalian, marilah kita berdoa agar Virus babi ini tidak merebak dan menjadi lebih teruk.
Sekian,..

Kawan.....

Hrmmm..
Setengah kawan baik dengan kita bila depa perlukan kita, bila kita ada kuasa,duit dan bleh diharap kita ada kawan. Tapi bila kita dah tak da semua tuh dan buat sikit saja kesilapan, kawan pon hilang tah kemana. Aku rasa sedih gak lar klu dapat kawan macam ni. Aku harap aku tak da kawan macam ni lah. Kadang2 ada juga kawan yang suka tikam dari belakang (back stabber). Ni yang susah, dia cakap macam2 pasal kita macam dia dah kenal kita 1000 tahun. Cakap pasal orang macam dia tu bagus sangat padahal sama saja. Salah kita dia Nampak tp salah dia tak nampak. Kita manusia banyak kelemahan jadi jangan lar suka tikam orang dari belakang, cakap depan2 lagi better bagi slow talk cakap elok-elok. Kalau kita dapat kawan2 macam ni apa kita rasa.?? Mesti rasa sedih, marah, dan rasa cam nak blow his f**king head off kan. Tp kalau buat macam tu memang dah lama masuk jail. Jadi sabar sajalah tengok apa yang berlaku, bak kata peribahasa “what u give u will get back!”